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preserved_ginger ([personal profile] preserved_ginger) wrote2007-09-01 05:24 pm

Unforgettable, Unforgotten

Title: Unforgettable, Unforgotten
Characters: Joan Redfern, John Smith, Martha Jones, Rose Tyler, The Doctor
Rating: PG
Warnings: Angst
Pairing: Smith/Joan (Doctor/Rose)
Spoilers: Human Nature and The Family of Blood
Disclaimer: Not mine; just borrowing.
A/N: All the bits in French come from the amazing song Les Feuilles Mortes ('Autumn Leaves').
Summary: Even here, even now, he remembers.

Tu vois, je n'ai pas oubliƩ
La chanson que tu me chantais.

When he kisses Joan - and this is not something he's admitting to anyone, least of all either Martha or Joan, especially as he is having a hard time acknowledging it even to himself - it is Rose he sees standing there, Rose he is kissing, Rose he is in love with beyond reason and misses so desperately.

It's always Rose.

If the kiss conveys a hint of that desperation, he neither notices nor cares. His eyes closed against reality, he buys into the illusion his mind has provided him - and willingly takes a step further on the treacherous road to madness.