Perhaps Then I Deserve It

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Title: Perhaps Then I Deserve It
Rating: U
Setting: During the scene in Journey’s End at the end, where the Doctor is in the TARDIS all alone.
Character(s): The Doctor.
Pairing(s): Ten I/Rose
Spoilers: Journey’s End, regrettably. Canon-compliant.
Disclaimer: Not Mine
A/N: For helygen, because for some weird reason she likes my stuff! Thank you to lostwolfchats for helping me with this :)
Summary: Perhaps then I deserve it, all this pain ...

I can’t believe I tricked my foolish hearts
By thinking I could keep you by my side;
And now I am without you. How it smarts!
But yet I cannot turn my face and hide,
For it was at my hand I lost my soul –
The first one who completed me in years.
I’ve hurt you, but that never was my goal,
Though you’re the one who’s suffered for my fears!
This lonely god is weeping in the rain.
The words I couldn’t tell you haunt my mind;
Perhaps then I deserve it, all this pain,
And by it I should find myself defined.
I said I’d never leave you. Yes, I lied.
But there’s a man just like me by your side.